Most of you guys probably know 9gag, I personally open it quite often before sleep. And no, not only the NSFW part lol.
And this morning I saw this post :
After seeing this, some may think how cute, how adorable this couple is.. And maybe some of you think how heinous that jerk in black from 1st panel..
Well, it's quite common to think like that. I used to think like that, until I become one.
Again in my other blog I have this post about some girl around 5 years ago. How much I hurt her feeling and all..
Around a year ago I found out that she was miserable for quite sometime, until she found this boy she's been with now. To put it in a sentence, "This boy saved her from me".
I don't know how to react, relieved I guess? But in the same time disappointed, in myself.
And before we continue this story, take a note that this thing is over, I just want to tell a story.
Ok moving on, do you have any childhood hero? Save the day, save the damsel in distress, keep his words, have a big heart, and so on so on. I have one, but turns out I'm not a hero. I am the villain.
Everytime I saw some post or articles about some jerks, I can't help but think about myself, a mistake is a mistake no matter how big or small it is, it can make some big change in somebody else. I was a fool not realise that. Even now, I'm not even sure where's my mistake is.
Well what should I do today? should I keep looking back? Or face something awaits me in the future? Doesn't matter! that's what I thought.
Past is something to be revise. And some reference to the future cases.
Besides, if you force yourself to forget, do you think it's easy? If it is, then it doesn't a really meaningful memories don't you think?
Then why bother?
Well I probably can only come up with excuses and excuses. But doesn't change the fact that I am the bad guy. And yet.. For a bad guy, I'm so lucky to be loved by a lots of people aren't I?
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